I feel like I should have confession time. I'm not Catholic, but I'm marrying one (that's not my confession, BTW). Today's confession is this: sometimes I don't know if we should have this wedding. Scary one, huh? We're already legally married, and sometimes, marriage is hard ya'll. Jason and I have definitely had our struggles in our first year of marriage. It wasn't blissful and happy...but it wasn't terrible either. We had some issues towards the end of my Korea stint that were difficult to overcome, but we've mucked through it. We're in counseling, which sometimes helps, but it's definitely not a cure all. We don't fight about the things I thought we would (dishes getting done, my laundry piles everywhere, him being at work all the time, etc.). It's sometimes not as fun as I thought it would be. We have terrible fights that may or may not have been influenced by watching certain movies:
That was Monday for us. We spent much of the week not talking about it, but having a pretty darn good week regardless. Last night we finally talked it out, and I think we've decided that we're always going to have issues...but we're also always going to be the love of the other's life. It's not perfect, but worth celebrating.
So what's my point? I spent a lot of time the last two weeks reading about/watching happy couples and moping that we might never be like that. I didn't blog as I should have (although now I have tons of fun stuff to catch you up on). I had to snap outta some negative thinking and have it out with Beau to remember what we have. I hope you never have to do that, but if you do, don't worry...it's just life. I won't pretend it's a fairy tale, but Jason and I have a great story and you can bet we're gonna have a blast at our wedding!
Have you ever had any doubts about getting married and/or throwing a huge expensive party for your marriage?
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