Not to Bee

It's time for confession again.  You see, I started this blog partially to document our whole relationship and wedding planning...but also because I wanted to write for WeddingBee.  The problem is, the website is insanely popular and has tons of applicants.  I thought my writing was distinct enough and my situation unique enough that they'd take me, but I was wrong.  At least for the first try.  On May 11th, I got a rejection e-mail.  I kinda understood...there were some entries that weren't great, but I was getting there.  Still sucked though.  So my entries kinda trailed for a little bit while I fixed other posts and decided what I wanted to do.  A few days ago, I got another rejection.  It was a mistake, but wow...did I have to be rejected twice???  Ah well.  Yesterday I spent most of my day reworking, and while I'm happy with the resulting posts, I also decided I don't think I'm going to apply again.  Reasons include:
1.  I have a wedding planner who makes a lot of this easy on me, so I probably don't have the backstory that some girls do.
2.  Being in Japan prevents me from getting as handsy as I'd like, and I think I'd have better stories if I did.
3.  I just don't think my writing compares to girls like Miss Fox or Miss Potion.
4.  I read this Real Weddings Post yesterday...Real Weddings was an option they gave me in my rejections letter, but I hadn't seen one yet.  I figure if this lady was rejected too...then I really don't stand a chance!
5.  I sound kinda down, and I am, but I got a lot of positive feedback from my friends about my blog, so maybe that's all I do it for.  I intend to keep writing regardless.  So maybe I just do it for me/my crowd.

Who knows.  Other Bees wrote about being rejected the first time, but accepted the second time.  But for right now, I think I'll just admire from afar.